2 posts tagged “girls”

It's a Saturday night and I'm laying in bed.  Nate had this laptop before we were married.  For some reason, it recently occurred to me that I could actually use the laptop and lay in bed at the same time.  DUH April.  Because we have dial up service out here though, Nate had to run a longer phone line so I can actually be in bed using the laptop.  It was no big deal though.

Nate has an ear infection in both of his ears.  He went to the doctor on Wednesday.  The doctor gave him an antibiotic and a steroid pack.  He had to see the doctor again on Friday to see if the medication was helping.  The doctor said not enough.  Now Nate has to see an ear nose and throat specialist.  We have to call on Monday to get that set up.  He may even have to have tubes put in for a while so his ears can drain properly.  I hate this.  I just feel like he's been through enough pain and being miserable.  With having cancer twice.  Chemotherapy, stem cell replacement.  He says it doesn't really hurt, just more miserable than anything.  I just wish I could fix it, make it go away for him.  We are laying in bed.  Thank goodness NASCAR started today.  That's what he loves.  Dale Earnheardt Jr. is his favorite driver.  So this is occupying his mind for now.  I like it, but don't enjoy it as much as he does.  Actually, I'd rather watch football.  He doesn't care for football though.  It's over for this season anyway.

This weekend was not our full weekend with the girls, just visitation during the day.  Today was Kylie's day.  Her mom works at Wal Mart and her Saturday schedule is normally 7am to 4pm.  Since Nate isn''t feeling well, I insisted he just sleep in this morning and I went to pick her up by myself.  That's fine, no complaints from me.  I got to do my necessity shopping early this morning before it was crowded.  It's so much easier to shop when there's hardly anyone in the store.  I took her back at 4pm.  We've just been lounging around since I got home earlier.  Kylie is such a good baby, we're so lucky.  We saw Jasmine last night when we got home from work.  Nate's mom usually picks her up for our visit since we don't get off work till 5pm.  We don't live far at all from his parents.  We live on their property, in the back of it though.  We can just walk or drive when it's cold or wet.

Tomorrow we won't be doing anything.  Watching more NASCAR and probably some movies.  We might play Scrabble, Monopoly Here & Now, or one of our board games.  We like to do that a lot too.  I want to play my American Idol game, but Nate is not in a position to compete singing.

Well I'm going to get off VOX and look around online now. 

I took the day off!  I realllly needed to though.  The wedding day is getting closer, laundry needs done, house needs picked up/cleaned, Jasmine and Kylie's room needs organized better.  Jasmine's Barbie stuff is everywhere....ugh.  About the only place for Kylie's toys are in her crib and in the play pen, and they are both full!  This weekend is our full weekend with both girls, so these things must be done.  We have two birthday parties on Saturday.

My stomach doesn't feel that great either.  I don't know if it's nerves, stress, or just blah.  Probably all of the above.  Wedding day is getting soooo close.  I'm feeling overwhelmed I guess.  I went to my psychiatrist the other day, and he says I have way too much stress.  I'm having anxiety AND panic attacks daily now.

Stress.  It doesn't help that Jasmine's mother (Tammy) is telling her that I am "trying to take her away from mommy", "don't hug, kiss or talk to April.  She is NOT your family".  As of September 30, I WILL be her step mother.  I simply tell her I love her very much.  It's all I can do right now.  She is four years old!  This is driving me crazy.  Her mental health is already so damaged at this point.  I can tell she is confused.  She's not playing or being mean.  I can tell by her actions and the way she does play that she is confused.  I don't know what to do.  We are considering turning her mother in to DCFS.  We need to check with the attorney to see what exactly would happen if we did this.  I would ultimately like to get custody of Jasmine after Nathan and I get married.  We do have some things going for us that Tammy doesn't.  We have stable jobs with health insurance.  We have a home of our own with 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms, so plenty of room.  We have male and female roles in the household.  We have routine.  Tammy has never had a stable job with health insurance.  Tammy lives with her mother.  She does not have a stable environment with a routine and organization.  I will never ever say anything to Jasmine about her mother.  I would never tell Jasmine bad things about her mother or how to treat her.  Oh, I could go on and on.  I wish we could have custody of both girls, but I don't see that happening.   

I can say that Kylie's mother (Trixy) is not going to brainwash Kylie like Tammy does to Jasmine.  I should say I have more faith in Trixy along the lines of these types of things.  Trixy did have to deal with Tammy for a very brief period of time.  So she does know what we are dealing with.  Not saying it couldn't happen, but I don't see Trixy brainwashing Kylie.

Nate and I are going to St. Louis next Wednesday for his checkup with his cancer doctor.  Things have been going well, but that doesn't stop me from worrying some.  I've been praying a lot.

I need to get things moving around here though.  I have done four loads of laundry though.  wooohoooo.  I still need to tackle the girls bedroom though.  Vacuum, I need to vacuum.