Is it ever going to...

Is it ever going to stop raining here?  I'm beginning to wonder.  There is flooding in our area, and some of it pretty bad.  The main highway that goes through our town, part of it was closed earlier today.  There was supposed to be a festival/carnival here this weekend.  Nope.  Everything was set up though, and it all got flooded.  Nate went to the bank this morning and saw it.  He said the vendors booths were flooded, the ticket office flooded, and some other things too.  There were supposed to be several festivals throughout southern Illinois this weekend, about 8 that I knew of anyway.  Further south of us it's even worse.  Today, September 23rd, was the original date we had chosen for our wedding day.  I am soooo glad we changed it, this would have been an absolute mess. 

Getting off of my klonopin is a hard thing to do.  I've been working on it really hard though.  I think I'm doing pretty well.  I try to calm myself when I feel a panic or anxiety attack coming on.  I tell myself to just breathe, try to think of something different, it will pass.  I'm asking God to help me get through this.  I really want to be able to function on very little medication, if any.  Nathan and I want to try to have a baby, that is the main reason I'm trying so hard.  If I get pregnant there won't be any medication to fall back on.  I want to try my hardest to have a very healthy baby, if I'm able to have one.

My wedding is next Saturday!  *scream*  I am getting nervous.  Traci picked up my dress yesterday, along with her's and Bethani's.  Oh please don't let me forget anything.  yikes